My life Nicholas

its been a long time

2010-11-20T05:06:00.000-08:00

its been a long time

okay, i know its been way long since i touced this. but tada! im back. hahah.
anyway, i had troubles signing in because SOMEONE changed my password.
anyway, many things have happened since the last post, but lets not dwell on the unhappiness.
so, last night, had a BBQ with aaron, mohan, mak, haris, esvaran, suria and don.
its been a long time since everyone got together and ate together. like it alot(:
then mohan, aaron, mak mak and haris stayed over at my place. had fun playing asshole taiti:D
so tonight, its my last night in my room, in my house. we're shifting out already): no doubt, this house carries many many priceless memories for me, but i guess shfiting out means a new start, and im kinda excited for it. oh oh, and last week, me, mohan, aaron, don and alice went to kelong. had SUPER fun there. cant wait to go overseas again, and this time, mak mak and haris better join in(:

went to watch megamind with haris and mak mak today, it was pretty okay la. hahah. and mak couldnt stop talking about food! LOL. so, lets move on to more serious stuff. i hate my camp. i hate my S3, i hate my ops spec. they are both idiots. i swear. i cant wait for my unit to close down. *please god, make it happened asap kay* :D.
okay thats all for now, but i've decided to make this a regular thing(: haha

chaosz

10th march 2008

2008-03-10T08:46:00.001-07:00

i cant get to bed:(

the 26th of march is coming soon.
i'm really really scared:(:(:(

if only raindrops really represented my tears. then, i would have to, anymore

4th March 2007

2008-03-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

i

i'm fine
take care

28th Feb 2008

2008-02-28T07:45:00.000-08:00

you're coming back tmrw.
i really hope you're fine
no one knows how much i miss you, except myself

michelle, i love you
take care

24th February 2008

2008-02-24T06:28:00.000-08:00

*depressed*
heartache

i hope michelle's ok
my one and only. and it'll always stay like that
i just wanna know one more time, that you love me

cos i love you, so much

23rd February 2008

2008-02-23T05:17:00.000-08:00

michelle, baby, are you ok?
i hope you're fine.
i hope you're thinking about me. are you?

i miss you so badly baby.
i just hope you're fine and you'll me know through one sms on monday.
i wanna see you before you go to malaysia baby.
days without you, are really torture.

sweetheart, i love you
get back to me asap ok?

2008-02-21T04:31:00.001-08:00

yes, this is the cut. and it hurts so badly.
it started bleeding again just now.. can you see the swell?\
baby, it hurts so bad you know?
a piece of super thick glass dropped onto it.
today was torture. i couldnt sms michelle.
*ihopeyoudidntmeanwhatyousaidjustnow. ithurtsobadyouknow?*

i dont have much to say about today.
just, i went for check up,
i miss michelle so much
baby, i love you.
i hope you're ok darling. i love you

20th February 2008

2008-02-20T07:23:00.000-08:00

hey baby, dont be sorry?
i dont blame you darling!
and thanks for calling again!! yay!!!
i was so worried and missing you so much i tell you

i have a new cut on my leg...
it hurts so bad la
*but you take all the hurt away*:)
i love you so

michelle, nothing on you is a waste
nothing at all baby
i love you so much

19th Feb 2007

2008-02-19T06:38:00.000-08:00

i got into my 2nd choice instead of the first
this is very saddening. lol

michelle, when you read this, hey dont be sorry or regret anything ok?
you did it for a reason.
but if you regret it, i know why darling
and its good:)

i'll have something for you tmrw baby
cheer up sweetheart
i love you
and that joke was super good can!!
i dont blame you for it:)

19th february 2008

2008-02-18T19:02:00.000-08:00

posting results out today.
i didnt get what i wanted
so, i wanted to appeal
but i cant
because they dont allow me
literally, they dont
my aggregate not good enough la!
but i guess i'm fine with common engineering
then make my way to aerospace next year

i need to study real hard for the first 2 semesters

hey darling, i love you so much
you're always me best:)
book title: MY ONE. lol
EH without the lol la!!
haha

17th February 2007

2008-02-17T06:54:00.000-08:00

where's my baby?
i'm missing her so badly
she's on my mind 24/7, literally

tmrw's monday
i wanna hear from her, like she promised me:)
baby, i love you

omg darling, remember how we used to laugh over who has the nicer smiley?
lol
memories of you have been flooding my mind baby
i love you

i went for ah long pte ltd with my mum and ryan
but it didnt seem right
i wasnt used to it
because you were always the one next to me during a movie
i teared in the cinema, because i was missing you so badly.
and the movie contributed to it too

*your tears, on my shirt, have sank into me and become a part of me*
i love you, michelle
my baby

14th February 2008

2008-02-13T18:30:00.000-08:00

Leftovers? i dont mind. as long as they're from you.
but shouldnt i be worth more?

Happy valentines

especially to my baby.
i've got something special for you
i love you

13th Febtuary 2008

2008-02-13T04:57:00.000-08:00

its the 13th baby
happy 7 months darling!:)
i love you sweetheart

my arms are aching
posting results are coming out
deon is going JC
separate ways from all of us.

i hope i get into NP
and the course that i want

i hope from now on, everything will be ok
everything will be fine

*you're my baby on days ending with Y*
michelle, i love you

13th Febtuary 2007

2008-02-12T18:48:00.000-08:00

and if you ask why i'm so fucking petty
there's only 1 reason

its because i'll never know when i can get to see it again.

happy anniversary baby
i love you

i looked so hard. and so deep for my part
but it never came:(

12th February 2007

2008-02-12T05:50:00.001-08:00

i was supposed to meet michelle today
but her dad came to pick her up:(
baby, the letters are still with me.
the tarts too

but they're meant for you, so it will always be here

i miss you sweetheart
i miss you so badly
baby, i love you

will tmrw be the same baby?

11th February 2007

2008-02-11T06:17:00.000-08:00

i guess that word was too strong a word to be used
all i wanted to know was that you're safe and sound, back home

it kept me flowing.

but michelle, i still love you.

10th February 2007

2008-02-10T07:42:00.000-08:00

how would it feel like when your friends know your dad is having an affair outside? trust me, the feeling sucks

service at indoor stadium was great

i miss michelle so much
baby, i'm afraid
you'll know what i'm afraid of tmrw darling

i love you so much
i cant wait for the morning
but i dont wanna be dissappointed
sweetheart, i love you

9th February 2007

2008-02-09T07:50:00.000-08:00

i just came back from malaysia
with fishes, durian, cuts on my legs and hands and pirated VCDS

haha michelle, PCDs. remember?
lol
baby, i miss you so much you know?
i want your msgs on my phone on monday
i want to receive them, no matter what
sweetheart i love you
malaysia trip was fine

i just miss you so badly, baby
i love you

6th February 2007

2008-02-05T16:22:00.000-08:00

i will be leaving at 3.30am on 7th feb

darling, i'm missing you so badly and my phone had to screw up this morning
i hope you will take care right baby?
you will right sweetheart?

i'm definitely missing you
and when i get there, i'll miss you even more darling
i love you so much
dont forget me baby:)
because i'll always be thinking of you

i love you, michelle

5th February 2007

2008-02-05T06:41:00.000-08:00

i met my baby today
darling, i miss you
yup, although i was sitting behind you
it was nice.
i kinda got to look at you at a 'different' angle

the way you put your legs up. you cross it
its so cute baby

i sent her home.
and darling, when you ran home, i was always behind, trying to take a last peek at you
i miss you sweetheart. and you will sms me tmrw right darling?
i'll get up early and wait again:)
went out for dinner just now.
at LAU PA SAT.

i'm tired.
i dont wanna go to malaysia
cos i'll miss you
darling, i love you so much honey

my baby writes the BEST letters!:)

4th February 2007

2008-02-03T19:18:00.000-08:00

baby, i know who the bulletin is for

when i'm away for 3 days. take care sweetheart. i'll be thinking of you
definitely

i love you michelle
my sweetheart:)

3rd February 2007

2008-02-03T04:28:00.000-08:00

i'm going to Malaysia real soon:(
i'm already missing michelle.
what more when i'm away?

someone up there, send an angel down, and take care of my sweetheart while i'm away.
my violin teacher is a B*****D
there was no lesson today and he didnt even tell me!!
and its not the first time!!!

tmrw's monday. duh?
and when i wake up at 7, i hope to see a msg from michelle
darling, i love you.
i love you so much baby

2nd February

2008-02-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

i'll be away for the new year. and baby, i'll definitely miss you baby
darling, i'm already missing you so badly

i hate the weekends i tell you
and tmrw's sunday.
its raining now, sweeheart.
you know what they are

i'm tired
really tired
and i have church tmrw morning.
and violin lessons.

my brother failed his theory exam.
no surprise.
i passed it on my 4th attempt. lol

darling, i love you sweetheart
you still remember what to do on monday, baby?

31st Janaury 2007

2008-01-30T18:31:00.000-08:00

the last few days were crap.

yesterday was esvaran's birthday
and michelle was always there for me=)

i miss you baby. i love you

26th January 2007

2008-01-25T18:10:00.001-08:00

i'm depressed.

i dont wanna talk about it.
i dont wanna let everyone know.

i just wanna hear from her. that she's fine.
my family is screwed la i tell you

i love you

24th January 2007

2008-01-23T18:42:00.000-08:00

i'm about 3 hours to my results.
omg, this sucks so bad.

ok, if i score well, i'm going out
if it sucks, i'm going home, to get scolded!!!

haha

ok, butterfly in my stomache. i dont know why
i miss michelle
and i love her

22nd January 2007

2008-01-22T06:15:00.000-08:00

i'm really tired.

my hands are covered with cuts.

my results are coming out on thursday.
oh god. this sucks

and i miss michelle so much
and my phone has been screwing up on me. this sucks, seriously
baby, i love you so much, sweetheart

21st January 2007

2008-01-21T03:27:00.000-08:00

yesterday night was a disaster.
what happened to be a night of soccer and badminton turned out disastrous.

alwin got dead drunk. and a really bad hangover after that
he vomitted all over, and i wiped his mouth, we all cleaned up the place.
haha me and aaron treated everyone to western food when we were waiting for alwin to get sober.

then his mum came down. and his sister came down
to bring him home in his drunk state.

we all helped sober him up.
brothers for life, thats what we are

today, i finally understood how hard work is
my hands, covered with cuts. sweat dripping non stop.
for a mere $45 a day.
alwin is right. spending is so easy. but earning it is so hard

i miss michelle
i really miss her so badly
and my phone had to screw up so badly on me today
sweetheart, if you see this,
i just wanna tell you that i love you so much

19th January 2007

2008-01-19T06:27:00.000-08:00

ok, i went church today.
its been literally years since i went for the youth service.
so today was the first time at arrow and i went with deon

it was quite nice. the people there were friendly
and yeah. enjoyed it
after that went down to clarke quay

had nice fish. haha
someone recommended it

i'm tired. really tired. and i miss michelle
baby, i love you. take care ok sweetheart? i cant wait for monday morning

18th JANUARY 2007

2008-01-18T06:49:00.000-08:00

ITS my birthday today!!

well, i didnt get to spend it with the person i wanted to spend it with but at least she accompanied me in the morning

and i got to call her
yup, its michelle
my baby

i didnt do much today. seriously, i didnt have the mood to
at night, i went for dinner with my family
esvaran and suria came along

it was quite an enjoyable dinner
and i'm going to NP tmrw and church
its been a long time since i met my church friends
i always went for the sunday service.

sweetheart, i miss you so much, baby
i love you darling
the weekend is gonna be super long

17th January 2007

2008-01-17T06:42:00.000-08:00

results are coming out really soon

my birthday's tmrw.
but i dont feel anything
thats because of everything that has happened

i miss michelle. i miss her so badly
and right now, i dont even know whether she's fine or not.
baby, tell me you're fine?

i just need some time.
i'll be starting work soon
at least there's something to occupy me with

baby, i love you
take care sweetheart

16th January 2007

2008-01-16T04:48:00.000-08:00

heartache
michelle is going through hell again.
wont her parents just let her off
ok fine, i caused all these. damn it

michelle, i'm sorry. really sorry.
darling, i really hope everything's ok with you baby.
sweetheart, take care.
pls take care baby.
all i'm just thinking about is how you are
baby, i'm really sorry. sweetheart, i love you

i really love you so much, darling

16th January 2007

2008-01-15T17:00:00.000-08:00

15th January 2007
a day i'll never forget.
everything ends.
i met michelle's parents again.
and we're never to contact each other again.

my heart aches. the verbal and physical assaults that she has to go through.
it breaks my heart to see her in tears.
everything may have ended. but i'll continue loving her in the background
oh god, send an angel down, specially for michelle.
take care of her.

and yes darling, i love you.
you're right. if we could turn back time, i would have made the right decision already.
but its all too late, baby.
take care, sweetheart.
i'll always be thinking of you
i love you

12th Janaury 2007

2008-01-12T05:04:00.000-08:00

ok, i think i cut my gums. i feel like something being sliced open inside. lol

i feel the flesh dangling. and it feels like it was sliced open. lol

ok, today was CCA display. PA did not bad la.

could have gotten more recruits. but we had too many alr. lol

then went lan after that.

i hate lan already. its getting so boring alr la!!

and where's michelle!? i miss her so badly ok!!
darling, i love you

11th January 2007

2008-01-11T05:32:00.000-08:00

ok, sorry. my mood last night was alittle screwed
i'm using my brother's phone now. lol
ok. today's another screwed day

everything's sucks.
ok, enough

and tmrw's CCA display!! yay!

i miss michelle so much
baby darling, i love you so much

10th January 2007

2008-01-11T05:29:00.000-08:00

i lost my phone today!!!

no mood. i lost everything inside ok!!!

bye!!

i love michelle!

9th December 2007

2008-01-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

i was at home, went out for awhile.

came home. chin long and esvaran followed me home
i was so worried about michelle today. thank god she's fine

and i'm seeing her tmrw!!

michelle, i love you so much sweetheart. take care

8th January 2007

2008-01-09T04:55:00.000-08:00

went back to school for awhile for a short meeting, then went out

went home only at about 6.30

es and suria came along for fun
suria is a fake vegetarian!!
lol

baby, i miss you
honey, i love you so much

7th December 2007

2008-01-07T04:34:00.000-08:00

today was really weird. i went to the MRT station to wait for michelle, then the guy who had just came back from overseas, walked towards me, handed me a booklet and told me all about god.
lol, ok i'm just surprised, thats all
lol

yup, i saw michelle today. it felt so good i tell you. i miss her so badly la ok!

and i hate my mum. she sucks. she interfers in every damn thing.

ok, first guitar class of module 2 today. the song was freaking hard. but i'm practicing hard too, lol
ok thats all. going back to my old school tmrw with my brother's

and this say is super true.
true friends stay by you and help you when you're in trouble. i experienced it yesterday
thanks suria and deon:)

not forgetting michelle.
i love you baby

6th December 2007

2008-01-06T05:14:00.000-08:00

i slept for a long time today.

guitar class starts tmrw! yay, new module!

ok bye people.

michelle, i love you

3rd, 4th, 5th Janauary 2008

2008-01-04T21:30:00.000-08:00

ok, i cant remember what i did on thursday. oh ya! i went back to school to help with the CCA banner. then friday, i wasnt home. and now,
i just came back.

finally, i'm back home.
i'm tired.
i need a short nap, so i wont fall asleep for something special tonight.

lol
baby michelle, i miss you so much.
i love you alot too darling.

3rd January 2007

2008-01-02T20:13:00.000-08:00

i hate my mum. i hate her so much. she used to be the person i love the most. but everything's changed.

just because i dropped the phone on the floor, you dont have to wake me up and scold me right?
it was a bloody accident, damn it.

my family sucks. i've got no more communications with them. everything revloves around everyone around me, except my family.

i dont know what i'm doing today.
but i might not be home tonight and tmrw night.

michelle, i love you alot

2nd January 2007

2008-01-02T19:36:00.000-08:00

it felt weird. everyone who passed by my house was in school uniform.

ok, the wait for results is killing me.
i wanna go back to school.

at least there's something to keep me occupied with. i dont wanna think off track and make myself all sad.

i saw my darling today!!!
i sent her home from school. it was a super short while. but seeing her felt so good. because the last time i saw her, was so long ago
i love you, baby.

someone, help me:(

1st January 2007

2008-01-02T19:23:00.000-08:00

the new year didnt really start off well. everything happened on the negative side.

oh well, what happens, happens. you cant change it.

lets just hope things will get better as the year goes by

i love you michelle

31st December 2007

2007-12-31T21:59:00.000-08:00

new years ever. went to AMK hub in the morning, then to toa payoh in the afternoon.

in the everning, went out. spent the night out.

michelle, i love you. you're telling me not to leave you along now, and i'll never do that. baby, i love you

30th December 2007

2007-12-30T04:00:00.000-08:00

i think we're breaking up today.
so much has happened. we're both afraid. is this really the best? we'll wait and see

michelle, you told me to continue loving you, and yes, i still love you sweetheart.
take care, you promised me you will

29th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:59:00.000-08:00

ok, we took the flight back today. i'm in absolutely no mood to blog.
came back at about 11.30.
dead tired

michelle, i love you

28th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:58:00.000-08:00

28^th December 2007

We woke up early today. 7.30.

We went to the hot spring today. It’s an experience for me. I went into the public pool with my dad and brother. My aunt and grandma went to the private pool. My mum chickened out.

*everyone was naked in the public pool. Ok male and female are in separate public baths.

There were 3 pools.

1, a hot bath

2, a hot bath with Jacuzzi

3, the real hot spring.

The hot spring was a real hot spring. Lol

The water was brown in colour, with all the minerals. The journey up to the hot spring in the hotel was a torture. My dad and I took turns to push my grandma on her wheelchair up a 1 km steep slope up. And the journey down was the same.

We were supposed to go for a night tour, but we missed it because we left the hot spring too late and missed the earlier bus.

We went goodies shopping at night, but my grandma didn’t. she wanted to rest in the hotel first.

We had ramen for dinner. Probably the cheapest so far. 2700 yen for 5 people. But we had side snacks, and that made up for it. It wasnt cheap at all.

We’re packing all out stuff now. Tomorrow, I’ll be back in Singapore=)

Ok, goodnight. I need to wake up early tomorrow. Macdonald breakfast. Lol

Day 10 ends

baby, i'll be back tmrw. i love you sweetheart. i love you so much

27th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:57:00.000-08:00

27^th December 2007

We woke up at 5.30am today!!

To go to the pearl centre. We were on time. No one was late. Everyone was ready by 6.15am

Ok, so we were at the train station. Today’s train ride costs 3,500 yen each which amounts to about $45 dollars each. Just for a train ride. It was 2 hours long. I slept inside, and honestly, I didn’t know what was happening around me.

Everyone said that it was going to be freezing at the pearl centre. It’s on an island, you see.

But the temperature was bearable. I sat outside in the open for about 40 mins alone, just listening to me mp3. lol

It was quite a nice trip. There was the women divers demonstration, where women divers would just jump into the water, wearing only 1 layer of cloth and dive into the 10 degrees cold water. There were 3 of them, and they caught a few oysters for its pearl.

We visited the jewellery shop and the museum. Hmm, I must say, its quite interesting.
after that, we went for lunch. Simple fare, but we ate to our hearts content. And the bill came up to $100 odd.

Then we walked, and went sight seeing. There were eagles, seagulls, albatross, and many more.

Ok, its time for the journey back, another 2 hours, and the same price. Just when the 2 hours was up, the station master told us we boarded the wrong train!!

False alarm, he made a mistake. Not us. So we dropped at our destination, Euhommachi, and went for dinner. It was posh. Private dining! Haha. Sashimi, ramen, sushi, steamboat, octopus etc. and yakitori.

Walked to the train station, and went back to namba station, where our hotel is.

Ok, its our last day tomorrow. Yayyy!!!

I’m going back soon!. This holiday has been kinda tiring.

Ok goodnight.

Day 9 ends.

baby, i'll be back to you soon. i love you sweetheart

26th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:56:00.001-08:00

26^th December 2007

Woke up earlier than normal today.

Had cup noodles and bread for breakfast.

After that, we went down to the lobby, scouted for information then set off.

We were going to Osaka castle today.

It looked more like a temple, instead of a castle. The library next to it looked more like a castle.

Ok, so we were inside, reading the information. And we took pictures in the army suit. We had to pay to take pictures.

After that, we went for the ocean liner boat ride. It was a 1 hour boat ride in the Osaka river. Not much of a difference from the Singapore river. Just that the temperature was cool, and the boat was hi-tech!

The top of the boat could be compresses so that even during low tides, it can still travel in the river.

Oh yes, before the boat ride, we had some light snacks because we didn’t have lunch.

We had hot dogs, fries and tako ball(octopus ball). And my dad decided to try some japanese flour snack. It was flour, made into shapes of balls, deep into sweet sauce.

After the ride, we ordered 1 packet of fried noodles, to share around firsts. Then we took the train back to Shin sai ba shi, where we had the crab feast. But this time, we didn’t have the same food. We had something more japanese style. The japanese steamboat. The meat inside was pork. There was vegetables, mushrooms etc. we ordered chicken wings, sashimi, sushi, beef rice, fried rice. Etc. it all sounds a lot but the portions were really small.

Then we left, and ordered some road side food. Cow’s cheek. The 2^nd time we’re having it. And we had the best ramen ever. It’s the best noodle I’ve ever tasted here.

And the noodle was in hot soup, just what we needed when the cold winds were blowing so strongly.

I’m going to bed now. We have to wake up at 5.30am tomorrow. We’re going to some pearl place.

Goodnight people. And yes, I’m coming home soon. Yay!

Day 8 ends

i love you sweetheart

25th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:55:00.000-08:00

25^th December 2007

Merry Christmas everyone.

Today was a rather tiring day. We woke up slightly earlier today, to go to Kyoto.

Its another town in Japan, so the travelling time was a little longer and the cost was much more too.

We didn’t have lunch. Ok fine, at about 4.30. before that, we went for a train ride, followed by a 1.5 hour boat ride along a quiet and clean river. We made it in time for the LAST boat ride. Oh yes, it cost $50 per person for the ride. Reason being, the boat is being rowed manually by 3 men. In side the small boat, we met a few other Singaporeans. We saw mandarin ducks, some birds and monkeys during the ride.

One thing bad. The boat stink, because of the kerosene needed for the heater.

After the ride, we went for a quick bite, before going back to Osaka.

We walked along the streets to the train station.

When we went there, we talked the bus. But on the way back, we walked.

It was already very dark at 5.30pm. it would have looked like 9 in Singapore.

So having ate alittle, we continued with the journey.

We then took the train back to Umeda, where we had a slightly heavier meal. Sushi, fried soba, rice, chicken sashimi etc.

We bought chocolate waffles. 2 of them.

Its Christmas night. That’s why we had so much trouble looking for a place to eat. We wanted to have seafood again, but settled for jap food again.

I’m back in the hotel, typing this. I just finished a can of Asahi beer. With peanuts, octopus, chocolate bread and chocolate waffle.

I’m quite tired. I miss Singapore.

I wanna go home. Ok, I guess my trip is ending already.
day 7 ends

merry christmas baby. i love you darling. i'll be back soon

24th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:54:00.000-08:00

24^th December 2007

Christmas eve today. Ok, a repeat of every morning. We didn’t wake up early, we never did. And as usual, I woke up the last. Today’s breakfast was pathetic. Bread again. But this time, there wasnt enough to go around. So we left the hotel, barely having enough for breakfast. Then, on the spot, we decided to go to the cycling park.

We had to take a train, then the bus. It was the first time we all took the bus here. The timing’s of the bus were very accurate. It arrived on time and reached our destination on time too.

Ok, so we’re at the park now. There’s hardly anyone here. We got the tickets and proceeded in. the first thing we did was rent bikes, and cycle around the cycling course. Everyone took a bike, except my grandma. She waited in the café for us. Of course we made sure she had something to drink and eat.

Then we all set off on our bikes. The bikes here are in really good conditions. My mum and aunt took the bikes which were called ‘women bikes’. They were battery operated and aided in their paddling. It made it easier for them. The ride was enjoyable, with a couple of uphill and downhill riding.

The ride took about 30 mins.

We were all starving by then. It was about 2.30. and we haven’t had anything to eat. Upon completing the course, we went back to fetch my grandma. She had eaten. When we wanted to order more food from the café, they said that they’re closed for the day. The park closes at 4.30, you see. So we had to settle for the food along the road side. I had soba noodles, with French fries. We were eating out in the open. The wind was strong. It was cold.

We made use of the remaining time that we had, and sat for a few more rides in the park. Pictures attached. There’s quite a few rides to be mentioned.

When we were leaving, I saw a family, with a rather useless mum. She had a few young kids, but she depended on her mum, to carry all of them up the hill. In the end, I help the grandmother carry one of her grandchild up the hill for her. Halfway up, my leg hurt, from the bump I had from the deer yesterday. But I carried on. Finally, we were at the top. We took a few pictures, and as stated, the bus arrived at 4.45pm.

We took the train back to our stop, walked abit to the next town to have dinner. It’s the first time in six days here that we’re having sushi. We had sushi, crab, steamboat and more crab. Ice cream was for dessert. The dinner was the best meal so far.

I’m now on my bed. It’s Christmas here already. Merry Christmas everyone. I’ll be back soon.

I’m tired, so I’ll stop here. I don’t know whats up for tomorrow. So I’ll just wait and see. I want to go home already!

Goodnight. *yawns*

Day 6 ends.

baby, i miss you. take care sweetie. i love you

23rd December 2007

2007-12-30T03:53:00.000-08:00

23rd December 2007

we all woke up rather late today again.

we didnt plan where we wanted to go today. so we took our own time in the morning. i was the last one to wake up again. we were all ready by 11.30

and we had bread for breakfast again. i had a hot dog bun, 2 mini croissant and a bite of donut. it tasted like it was made purely with sugar.

then, we decided in the lift to go to Nara. the deer park. and there were a few temples there also.at the train station, i shared another can of beer with my dad.

before we visited the deers, we were walking around Nara town and we also had lunch there. the food we had was similarly to that of the dinner on the

first night. noodles, rice, chicken, some beef. oh yes, and more gyoza.

so, we continued on our journey, to the park. everything from here was uphill. imagine pushing someone up the hill on a wheelchair.

i was the one pushing, my grandmother, who's about 90kg.

ok, fast forward. we finally reached the park.

at the entrance, we were welcomed by 3 deers, enclosed up.

then as we walked further in, there were more. so many more. but this time, they were roaming freely.

we were feeding them with buiscuits that we just bought for our own consumption but ended up giving them everything.

we fed them, took pictures with them.

then i spotted one of them, quietly sitting at a corner. so i decided to take a picture with it. then i bent down.

snap, my aunt took a picture. the moment i got up, the deer got up, turned around and knocked me in my thigh. it was a hard knock. thank god

its horn's were cut off already. i had abit of a shock.

for awhile, i was afraid to go near them. i swear, it was just awhile

a few minutes later, i was among them, feeding them again. and there were more than 5 around me.

it was just a momentary phobia. everything was ok. i was feeding them, taking pictures with them again. etc.

we left, and i was back to pushing the wheelchair again.

after walking around the town, we took the train, and decided to return to the hotel.

halfway through the journey, my auntie decided to drop at the stop, where its known as the little korean town.

we had korean beef. t-bone steak. cow waist, cuttlefish. vegetables. strips of raw beef. everything was grilled on your own.

we were speculating that the bill would exceed 20,000 yen, but it came up to 9,400 yen, which converted would be about $125

after that, we took the train, to complete our journey back. we didnt reach home very late. and tomorrow, we're just going shopping

i think. ok, i bathed already. and i'm continuing all these. its christmas eve tomorrow. and in about 5 days more, i'll be back in Singapore.time has to go faster. its getting really boring here.i'm going to adjust the aircon now. its too cold.goodnight.

day 5 ends.

i love you darling. take care ok baby? i miss you so much. i'm longing for you

22nd December 2007

2007-12-30T03:51:00.004-08:00

22nd December 2007

we woke up rather late today. i was the last one to wake up.

we all had bread for breakfast.

i took one slice. but it was super thick.

then we went to the market. kuromon market.

we tried the road side stall food. and we bought stuff back. japanese food. raw tuna, octopus, fish roe.

we had yakiniku beef for lunch. it was a very small portion.it was the grill thing la. with pork and chicken.

we walked alot. and i had to push the wheelchair for almost the whole day. i was tired.

we came back rather early today. and we had instant noodles for dinner along with some side dishes.

so back to somewhere in the top. my beer and everything. i finished it already. and i'm preparing to go to bed, listening to wonderful tonight by

eric clapton.

i dont know where we're going tomorrow, but i want time to pass faster. christmas is coming.

day 4 ends.

michelle, i love you.

21st December 2007

2007-12-30T03:51:00.001-08:00

21st December 2007

we were supposed to leave straight for universal studios at 8.30.

but by the time we were ready,it was 9.30.we were at the lobby at about 9.30

we reached universal studios.

the entrace ticket was rather expensive.

we took the first ride, the roller coaster.

me, my dad and my brother.

the first slide was the worst. other than that, the rest of the ride was ok.

after that, all of us went for the rock and roll musical.

it was ok.

next up, was cyberdyne.the 3-D show of terinator 2.

we all had to put on special glasses to see the effect.

after that, we went for the ET adventure ride. it was a slow ride. where we see all the figurines of ET. the whole family went for it.

next, we went for the spiderman ride. it was my favourite amongst everything.

it was another 3D ride. but this one was so much better. again, we had to put on the glasses, just that, this time the machine was moving.

everything in the ride was unexpected. that made it the best ride.

im typing this on the 22nd and right now, i'm having octopus, fish egg and beer.lol

after spiderman, almost everyone wanted to throw up. so only me and my dad went for the next ride. back to the future.

the ride was stationary, but the motion projection made it feel like we were moving.

lastly, my dad and my brother went for the jurrasic park ride. it was a wet ride.

after that, we al proceeded for the peter pan show. it was awesome. the people flew up like they werent suspended by anything. it was cool.

we wanted to have dinner at the chinese restaurant there. but everything was closed. it closes at 8. it was freezing. everyone was cold. yes, including me.

then we had dinner at another buffet restaurant.the buffet here was so much better. there was better dessert and everything. there was ice cream.

the urinal there was hilarious. pictures taken.

after dinner, we took alot of pictures. just before we left unversal studios.then we left back, for our hotel.

we reached back rather late, at about 11.40pm japan time, we were all tired. dead beat.

i went to bed at about 1.30

the last one to fall asleep.

day 3 ends.

michelle, take care. time will pass by fast and i'll be back soon. take care sweetheart. i love you

20th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:50:00.000-08:00

20th December 2007

Day 2

had cup noodles for breakfast and some bread with bak kwa together with peanut butter

went to the aquarium, then had lunch. dried udon. i shared a can of beer with my dad. kirin beer, if i'm not wrong.

after lunch, we went for the giant ferris wheel ride.

after the ride, we went shopping in the 105 yen shop. everything in there was 105 yen. my brother says the name of the shop is called 'Seria'

we bought a packet of chips and other stuff.

had buffet dinner. most of the dishes were made of vegetables. majority of the dishes were cold.

we spent a long time searching for the restaurant but realised it was connected to our hotel when we walked back through the connector connecting the building

and the hotel.we were back in the hotel.

we showered, slept 'early', to prepare for the next day, to Universal studios.

day 2 ends

baby, i love you. take care.

19th December 2007

2007-12-30T03:49:00.000-08:00

19th December 2007

Day 1

I didnt enjoy anything in the plane, the games were different. the flight was about 7 hours. I had fish for lunch, and japanese green soba, accompanied with a cup of red wine. My mum took it for me. I accompanied it with peanuts from the airline. Munching and drinking, I was watching transformer for the second time.

According to my mum, my whole face was red. Ya, I felt really warm inside, but i knew i was ok.

reached Osaka at about 5pm japan time

arrived at the hotel, swissotel at about 5.30

unpacked, relax, then went to hunt for dinner.

we all wanted Udon, but in the end, landed up in a place where they served everything but Udon!

we had noodles, gyoza, chicken, vegetables, rice, etc. i still remember, the bill came up to 7010 yen

went back to the hotel, bathed and sleep.

day 1 ends

i miss michelle. i miss her so much. i hope she's fine. hearing her cry hurt so bad.
sweetheart, i love you. i love you so much

18th December 2007

2007-12-18T04:02:00.000-08:00

baby michelle, i wont be here to wish you our first 'merry christmas'
darling, MERRY CHRISTMAS

i'll back to wish you happy new year:)

and everyone out there, merry christmas in advance:)
michelle, i love you.

18th December 2007

2007-12-18T02:57:00.000-08:00

its my dad's birthday today. and we're leaving for Japan tmrw.

someone pls tell me that you'll take care of michelle for me while i'm away?
i'm going to miss her, yeah sure i do.

darling michelle, if you ever see this, hey i'm fine over there. dont worry too much. you take care ok?

i love you baby:)

17th December 2007

2007-12-17T05:00:00.000-08:00

i dont wanna go for holiday anymore. because it means i'll have to lose something, which i dont want to:(

can i have both?

its the the first time my WHOLE family is going for a holiday. but i'd rather keep the thing that i'm going to lose. that means much more to me

michelle baby, i love you

16th December 2007

2007-12-16T04:23:00.000-08:00

i dont know why. it feels like i havent blogged for very long. lol

i'm going away soon. will you someone do me a favour?

take care of michelle while i'm away? and if anything happens, ring me immediately? ok nvm.

i miss michelle. and i want her to be fine while i'm away.

sweetheart? i love you. i know i'm seeing you tmrw.

but where're you now? i miss you so much darling

when i'm gone, take care ok baby?

love you:)

14th December 2007

2007-12-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

tiring today.

me, esvaran and alwin made a really good deal today:)

michelle, i love you and i'm sorry for everything's that happening

13th December 2007

2007-12-14T05:39:00.000-08:00

i went to michelle's house today

its supposed to be the 5th month for me and michelle

but today sucked.

full stop.

i had guitar class today and the test was great:)

12th December 2007

2007-12-12T05:34:00.000-08:00

long day today

i'm tired. goodnight

11th December 2007

2007-12-11T06:11:00.001-08:00

i went to michelle's house today:) and i'm going again on thursday:)
then after that, i'll be going away and i dont know when i'll see her again.

flute class today. none next week. both student and teacher going away for holiday. lol

my dad's not home yet
and michelle's not back at her home yet.
i hope both are fine

michelle, i miss you. i wanna talk to you again sweetheart. i love you baby:)

10th October 2007

2007-12-10T06:08:00.000-08:00

SG, TP

a few more visits left.

and i'm seeing michelle tmrw!! yay!!! omg, its been damn long la!

michelle baby, i love you so much. and you dont have to be worried about anything ok darling?
i love you

9th December 2007

2007-12-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

MICHELLE IS BACK!! YAY!!!
ok, i was on the line with her last night, and this evening. omg, i miss her so much i tell you!

today's sunday. boring. *yawns
church. lunch. NO VIOLIN LESSON. lol

ya thats all la.

i hate sundays. its more of the family day nonsense.

TMRW!!!

6th December 2007

2007-12-06T03:41:00.000-08:00

ok, i'm still home. so, i'll do a short post.

this is bad. its always during the nights that i miss michelle terribly. and now, i'm going out.
oh god.
go, or not to go.

ok ok, go. hoping time would pass faster when i'm out.

michelle, you must come back soon. saturday night right? yup, i'll be waiting. darling, hurry.
i miss you so badly, sweetheart.
i love you so much baby.

6th Ddecember 2007

2007-12-05T19:24:00.000-08:00

michelle's coming back soon!!! yay

i wont be blogging tonight. going for the sneak preview of some show called wonder emporium i think. i signed up for some membership thing and got the tickets. going with esvaran, alwin and suria

so, ya, i'm blogging now. and when i come back, and go to bed tonight and when i wake up tmrw morning, i'm 1 day closer to the day that michelle comes back:)

its saturday and she should reach home at about 11.30. i'll wait eagerly:)
darling, hurry up, come back. i miss you so much, you know?

i love you sweetheart. i really really love you so much:)

5th October 2007

2007-12-05T04:50:00.000-08:00

3 more days!!!! and michelle will be back:)

the times that she's gone has been really bad.
i miss you darling. i miss you so much

today was boring. my friends have started work. and i can only start mine after my dreaded holiday=.=
i dont wanna go. but its the first time my WHOLE family is going. sure, its going to be tough. but i'm the only one on talking terms with everyone.
so, i dont wanna be a spoiler.

michelle baby, hurry, come back. i miss you badly
and darling? i love you, whole heartedly:)

4th December 2007

2007-12-04T05:14:00.000-08:00

2nd flute lesson today

this is very very bad.
i miss michelle so badly.
everyday i ask myself. is michelle alright? is she eating properly? is she putting on enough clothes?

lol, so naggy right? ok enough. i'll just wait for saturday.

my holiday got postponed by 1 day!!!
lol
it means i have more time with michelle:)
and then when i come back, everything will be okay already. yup, i hope so

sweetheart, i miss you. i miss you so much, you know baby?
i love you alot michelle darling. i love you:)

3rd December 2007

2007-12-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

I MISS MICHELLE SO MUCH!!!
:(:(

and she' only coming back on Saturday. i did what she asked me to do today.
i promised her. so i'll go.
and the saddest thing is,
when michelle comes back, 1 week later i'll be going away. and i'll be going away longer then she did. i'll be gone for 12 days. but as soon as i come back, i'll be working.

then i'll have more money for michelle:) lol
ya i will!

i want michelle back soon. ASAP!!! i miss her so badly
michelle darling, i love you
i really really love you so much. Always

2nd December 2007

2007-12-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

MY BROTHER HAS A MUCH MUCH MUCH BETTER PHONE THAN ME!!! NOT FAIR! LOL

church, violin lesson. boring.

i miss michelle so badly. ya, i miss her like hell
and its only the second day la wah lao.
6 more to go can!:(
i tell myself not to worry about her, but i want her to take care.
michelle darling, you must take care ok?
baby, i love you so much

1st December 2007

2007-12-01T06:13:00.000-08:00

Michelle's away already:(:(:(

countdown: 7 full days left.

baby, you must come back quickly. i'm missing you so badly alr. the next few nights would be different. michelle's isnt there to talk to me. we would always talk late into the night and into the morning but its going to be different for awhile.

MICHELLE! I MISS YOU!
darling, pls take care ok? you promised me.

i was on the phone with michelle at about 6 just now. and its the last conversation for the next 1 week. ok, i can just go on and on but michelle will still be back only next saturday

michelle, i love you so much sweetheart. i really love you alot darling:)

30th November 2007

2007-11-30T04:21:00.000-08:00

its the 1st tmrw and michelle is leaving tmrw!!! TMRW!!! :(

last night sucked, so did this morning.

anyway, i went for my second guitar lesson today.

5 more to go. its a holiday programme you see

michelle had better come back quick. ITS 8 DAYS!!! WAH LAO!!!

BABY, I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETHEART. I WANT TIME TO FLY PAST FOR THE NEXT 8 DAYS.

29th November 2007

2007-11-29T05:17:00.000-08:00

GUESS WHAT PEOPLE! I SAW MICHELLE AGAIN TODAY!!
HEY, WHEN YOU'RE BEING 'SEPARATED', SEEING EACH OTHER FACE TO FACE FOR AWHILE MEANS ALOT OK!

BUT I WAS ALITTLE LATE IN THE MORNING. BECAUSE SOMETHING HAPPENED. NOT WORTH SAYING THOUGH. SO YEAH, I WAS WITH MICHELLE AND EVERY SECOND MEANT ALOT:)

HIT.SORRY.HOME.
MICHELLE, REMEMBER?:(
DARLING, ITS NOT YOUR FAULT OK SWEETHEART?
I LOVE YOU ALOT, YOU KNOW BABY?
MICHELLE'S LEAVING FOR KOREA REAL SOON.
AND FOR A MOMENT, I'M WISHING NOVEMBER HAS 31 DAYS, SO THAT I CAN HAVE 1 MORE DAY WITH MICHELLE. SHE'S LEAVING ON THE FIRST, YOU SEE:(
BABY, I'LL SURELY MISS YOU BUT AT LEAST I HAVE YOUR 8 LETTERS. DARLING BABY, I LOVE YOU. I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETHEART:)

28th November 2007

2007-11-28T04:40:00.000-08:00

i saw michelle again today!!! we were at her house, but outside. what happened up there ah darling? lol. shhh ok... then this stupid person. spoiler ah? lol

i was with michelle from about 9.10 to 11.30. i tell you, i needed these times badly because i miss my darling so much. then after that, i went home.

bathed, and rested for awhile. was on the phone with michelle, then i went back to her house. but this time, to pass her something under her door. i didnt get to see her. ok fine, through the gate. i kissed her. she tasted tears. ya, my tears

you see, michelle's going on holiday. the wrote 8 letters for me, 1 for each day. at first, michelle said she could come out for awhile, but he ah ma didnt allow. so i was sitting on the steps, thinking about the earlier part of the day. ok i admit, i was damn emo then. i started tearing. then i rememberd the letters. i took out the first one and read it. then i cried damn badly. eh, it was damn touching la! i cried. i cried hard. i cried badly. michelle gave me tissue paper when she opened the door alittle. lol
then over the phone, we read all the letters that michelle wrote. there was a damn cute picture inside la!!! lol

michelle's leaving in 2 days. i'm going to miss her so badly.
baby darling, i love you. yes, i really really love you so much, sweetheart.
take care when you're overseas.
i'll be thinking of you sweetheart:)

27th November 2007

2007-11-27T03:18:00.000-08:00

i went out for breakfast with my mum this morning. its been ages since i did that. ok watever. lol

then in the afternoon, i went to michelle's auntie's house to see michelle from a distance again:) eh better than nothing ok! but i hope i'll be seeing her face to face. yay!! happy alr la. lol

ok, i was there for almost 3 hours. and i kept smiling to myself. hello? we're talking about my darling girlfriend here? seeing her would definitely make me happy la!!!

ok, then when i got home, i had a fever. heacache. etc. sick la ok. sick....

MICHELLE, THIS IS FOR YOU AGAIN.
HEY, THE 3 SMSES THAT YOU SENT MY LAST NIGHT KNOCKED SOME SENSE INTO ME.
DARLING, I'M SORRY I CONSTANTLY HURT YOU
SORRY, I'M NOT THERE FOR YOU EVERYTIME YOU NEED ME.
I'M SORRY BABY
BUT I'M GOING TO TRY MY BEST TO GIVE YOU THE BEST IN EVERYTHING
AND YES, I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT, SWEETHEART

26th November 2007

2007-11-26T05:14:00.000-08:00

i went for flute lesson today...

OMG OMG!!! I SAW MICHELLE TODAY!!! YA BUT SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED BEFORE THAT
MICHELLE WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE CCA . IT WAS RAINING. THEN MICHELLE WAS ALREADY IN SCHOOL BUT AT FIRST, SHE SAID SHE CANT MEET ME ANYMORE.

THEN LATER, SHE CAME OUT. I TELL YOU, I WAS SO DAMN HAPPY LA. EH, YOU KNOW HOW LONG I HAVENT SEEN MICHELLE FOR?

THEN SHE CAME OUT. I THOT IT WAS JUST GOING TO BE 10 MINS OR SO. BUT THEN SHE STAYED ON, THEN AFTER AWHILE, THE WHOLE THING GOT CANCELLED ALTOGETHER!!! OMG!!! BEST LA!! SO I WAS WITH MICHELLE FOR AN HOUR PLUS. ITS BEEN A LONG TIME HUH BABY?

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE ALOT OF THINGS HAPPENED. REMEMBER THE PLAYGROUND? BEST AH BABY. LOL
SORRY LA, I TOOK A LONG TIME UNTYING THAT KNOT. LOL. BUT SOMEONE SO FAST AH BABY?

NOW, I STILL MISS MICHELLE LIKE HELL. CALL ME A LOSER, BUT YEAH. I STILL MISS MY DARLING. AND SHE'S GOING AWAY SOON

1ST DEC -8TH DEC: MICHELLE GOING HOLIDAY
17TH DEC - 29TH DEC: NICHOLAS GOING HOLIDAY. THATS LIKE ALMOST THE WHOLE MONTH GONE LA!!!

OK ENOUGH, I'M DEPRESSED ENOUGH. I'M WAITING FOR 10. SO I CAN CALL MY SWEETHEART AND HEAR HER SUPER SWEET VOICE
BABY MICHELLE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DARLING
:) FOREVER BABY. YES, MY LOVE FOR YOU IS FOREVER

25th November 2007

2007-11-25T04:20:00.000-08:00

i was so tired when i went to church this morning. lol
i was on the phone with michelle for almost 6 hours!!! yay!! so it was worth it.

then i went to pick my brother up then we waited for my aunt. we had lunch at millenia walk. bakerzin.

then we went straight down to united square. i bought a new flute. $1160. it's my birthday present=.= i was expecting a laptop la!!! anyway, so yeah. i went for violin lesson. but everything was shit. i pissed michelle off real badly and she was hurt. baby, i'm sorry

then michelle finally decided to reply!!!
but tonight, she's feeling down and i cant even do anything about it:(

baby, remember, i'll always be here for you. darling, i really really love you alot sweetheart

24th November 2007

2007-11-24T04:33:00.000-08:00

i saw my nanny today and her kids. had lunch. then went to orchard, brought my brother for class and waited 2 hours for him... boring.

fever's back. i wanna sleep, but no, i'm waiting for 10, so i can call michelle

what am i going to do when michelle's away? i already miss her so badly now, i'll miss her like hell i tell you.

darling baby michelle, i love you so much

hurry! go back to your phone! lol

23rd November 2007

2007-11-23T05:01:00.000-08:00

the last few days wont be something i call great. i'm keeping what happened, low profile. the lesser people know about it, the better

i went for my first guitar class today. it was alright i guess.

i havent seen michelle for so long. and she has school on monday which means i cant get to see her:(

i miss michelle. i really miss her so much. so what if we talk for a few hours everynight? i still miss her, terribly.

michelle, darling i want you to read this the next time you use the comp
you mean everything to me baby
i love you so much
and you'll never have to face anything along baby.
because i'm always here for you.
your parents may not appreciate you
but there are people around you who do,
like me
and baby, dont ask why your parents had you if they hated you.
i told you, you were created for a purpose.
you're someone special, remember baby?
i love you darling. i really really love you so much

19th November 2007

2007-11-19T05:33:00.000-08:00

this is for michelle koh hwee min:) i wont be using the comp for the next 2 days so i'm hoping my baby would read this soon

darling, the past weeks have been bad. i'm not able to see you. i miss you. yes i do. i miss you terribly

but darling, it doesnt mean if i dont get to see you, my love for you gets lesser. thats nonsense and its something that wont ever happen. you hear me? i long for you more everyday and i swear my love for you get deeper and stronger after every passing minute.

michelle, yes, you mean the world to me. you are everything to me. dont doubt me.
i love you sweetheart. i love you whole heartedly.
and remember this. i'll always be with you, for you and i'm sorry i had to hang up that day. sorry ok baby?

i love you darling. i love you so much. and you must remember that. still remember what you're supposed to tell yourself every morning when you wake up?

*Nicholas loves Michelle alot* :)

19th November 2007

2007-11-18T17:12:00.000-08:00

everything has been brought forward and it sucks man... i'm afraid. really afraid.

but michelle told me to be strong and for her sake, i will

baby, i love you. i love you so much michelle

ok, gtg. dont have much time. bye bye

darling michelle, i love you:)

18th November 2007

2007-11-18T05:11:00.000-08:00

sunday's here again. i went to church and the message today was how to love someone properly. how to respect a special someone. sure, i learnt alot from it. it was meaningful, ya it was

i fell asleep at 6 am this morning and i had to wake up 1 hour later. but it was something i wanted to do will 6. i was on the phone with michelle from 11.45pm to 6am! cool huh? hell yeah man

no violin lesson today. lol. i went for facial today!!!
it hurt like hell la!!!

ok, enough. i sound happy. but i'm not. because i miss michelle so much. when can i get to walk down any street with michelle again?

michelle, if you get to read this, read it carefully. baby sweetheart, i love you so much darling

17th November 2007

2007-11-16T20:08:00.001-08:00

i'm sad. i'm depressed. that sums up everything. its amazing how the same 1 person can make you feel so happy, and then, make you feel hurt like you've never felt before.

michelle, dont worry. i still love you alot baby.

will someone, anyone, mean their promises made to me?

16th November 2007

2007-11-15T20:51:00.000-08:00

grad night was light night. i didnt really enjoy it. dont expect me to, because something happened.

and today sucks. my mum sucks. my family sucks.

i hate everything la wah lao.

ok, on a lighter note, there's class BBQ today at pasir ris park

baby darling michelle, i love you :)

i love you so much:)

15th November 2007

2007-11-14T19:07:00.000-08:00

GRAD NIGHT IS TODAY!!!!YAY!

i've got nothing much to say about now. come on, the day barely started.

oh, but i was on the phone with michelle for 5 hourse!! lol

sweetheart michelle, i love you so much:)

14th November 2007

2007-11-14T05:41:00.000-08:00

now that Os are over. i have a lost of time. i forgot what day today was... lol

i never felt so tired before. i slept for 13 hours for the first time in my life then after i woke up, i went to 'see' michelle at her aunties house. and michelle was jumping about when she saw me! lol. i was damn happy to see her too.

but she's lost so much weight. i dont know but my heart aches when i saw that.

tmrw's grad night. i'm supposed to be damn excited like my other friends. but i'm feeling normal. nothing sepcial.
countdown, 6 more days before i get admitted.

michelle darling, i miss you. i miss you so much. and i love you alot too:)

13th November 2007

2007-11-13T04:25:00.000-08:00

the 13 will always mean that special something to me. but will it to you?
i didnt get to go with michelle to linkin park concert. dont ask me why. so much has happened:( and i dont wanna talk about it. so michelle went to the concert with some other people while im seating at home, with my back in pain.

i wasted the whole day today. dont wanna elaborate further but i guess you get what i mean.

do i still mean everything to you?

michelle, i love you, i really love you so much and i miss you

12th November 2007

2007-11-12T00:36:00.000-08:00

today's boring. so boring. i couldnt go to 426:(
i want to see michelle asap. i want to see her and hug her again.

darling, do you know how much i miss you huh, sweetheart?

eh darling. must sms me immediately once you get the phone again ok!!! i love you sweetheart:)

11th November 2007

2007-11-11T04:39:00.000-08:00

i have to start by saying this. i miss my baby michelle terribly.

ok, i just tried on my 3 piece suit again... i'm bored la ok.
thursday's the thing. and i want to see michelle on tuesday.

*depressed. this is so depressing*

michelle sweetheart! i love you so much!

10th November 2007

2007-11-10T05:57:00.001-08:00

EH I DIDNT GET TO SEE MICHELLE TODAY LA! THANKS TO SOME PEOPLE!!! ARGH. SCREW THEM!!!

i'm sad and depressed. i miss michelle so much and i hope i get to see her on tuesday:) darling, i love you so much sweetheart! eh, keep something for me ah? you know what;) lol

darling michelle, i love you so much:) try and charge the phone!!!

9th November 2007

2007-11-09T06:06:00.000-08:00

and today's my happiest day. i got michelle a phone and now? we can sms again:) yay!! but my leg hurts like hell. blister.

i walked to cedar and on the way back, landed up outside royal sporting house. i made a whole big round, but it was so worth it, to see a msg from michelle

michelle i miss you. i really miss you so much and honey? i love you:)

8th November 2007

2007-11-08T04:13:00.000-08:00

it was deepavali today! and i managed to find a stall to sign up for a phone plan!!! yay!!!

and i was sick for the whole day la. and i was missing michelle so badly, then suddenly. my phone vibrated and it was a msg from michelle koh, my darling!!! :)

that msg just made my day ok:)

but would the 13th of this month be like? i dont know:( i wont be with michelle. she'll be with someone else, i guess. ya she will be with someone else. LP concert. why do you seem to be enjoying yourself so much? while i'm just suffering, so badly? michelle, i miss you so badly, you know?

michelle, i love you so much. really. so much

2007-11-07T06:05:00.000-08:00

andiguessimnolongerthemostimportantpersontoyouanymore
youmadepromisestometooyouknow?itrytounderstand
butimhumanidogethurtyouknow? idontwishtoquarreloverthisanymore
becausetimeissolimitedformeandijustwannaspendeverymomentwithyouhappily

i love you so much michelle, but at times, i do get hurt:( i'm sorry

7th November 2007

2007-11-07T04:06:00.000-08:00

its the last day of my Os today. but like expected, i wasnt happy at all. everyone around me shouting and smiling when they came out of the hall, but i came out, with a gloomy look. i wasnt happy at all. not at all.

where were you when i wanted to spend today with you?
ok, that sounded bad. i wanted to spent today with michelle, but i couldnt. and when i read in the letter that she was celebrating today with someone else, ya it did hurt. but i cant do anything.
and i understand. i really do. but i'm human. i do get hurt:(

after my paper, i went to 'meet' michelle at her auntie's house. you dont know how much i wanted to hug her. i wanted to hug her so badly and i'm sorry i kept calling for you, sorry:(
I wanted to squeeze her through the window, and bring her to a far away land. but i dont know if she's willing:( i love michelle. i really do. why wont anyone believe me? im 16, but i know what love is. i'm willing to give up everything, just for michelle. when she's hurt, i'm more than triply hurt. when she's sad, i feel 'sadder'. when she crys, my heart bleeds. and she is the only person i think of 24/7. the list goes on and on and on. and most importantly, i'm willing to make any sacrifices for her. yes, i'm more than willing to do anything for her. michelle darling, you read? i really really love you so much and to quote you
'i live everyday in fear of you leaving me'.

Sweetheart(michelle koh hwee min), i really love you so much, and yes, it will be forever.

i just finished a watching the 7.00pm channel 8 show. the guy and the girl left home, to spend the rest of their life together. the guy was still studying, but he stopped studying and went to work, all for the girl. and i will do that too.

i'm sick. i feel even more worse than yesterday. but i know its because i'm love sick. i miss michelle so badly, you know? michelle, i really miss you so badly. when will i ever be able to hold your hands again, eat with you at lavender food square, walk down vivo with you and go into the wading pool with you again? 9 years time? i will wait. because that feeling stays permanent for me and i've found that feeling in you. its the feeling that you give me and i will never be able to forget it. even now, during all these, i feel THAT feeling. that feeling of love with you. its the best feeling ever and i know nothing will ever feel as good.
michelle, promise me you'll wait 9 years ok? or just be with me for the time that i'm still here ok?

i hope you get to use the comp tonight, and read this.
because i just want to tell you, i really really love you so much, darling. my sweetheart:)

6th November 2007

2007-11-06T04:04:00.000-08:00

and this morning, i coughed out blood. to be sure, i coughed another 3 times, and yes, BLOOD came out! i'm fine i guess, i wont die. lol

my O levels are ending tmrw.. but why dont i feel happy at all? because i miss michelle. i miss michelle so badly. but we were on the phone for 4 hours today:) <3!!

i need to see her. i need to see her asap.
you'll never know the pain i feel, not being able to see michelle and even if we do see each other, there's a wall blocking us:(

i'm sick. both love sick and physically sick
fever, flu, cough. and having to survive 3 papers today in such a condition was hell but thank god michelle was there, to talk to me, make me laugh, and tell me she loves me:) thanks darling

i'm going to block 426 tmrw, because i told michelle when my Os ends, the first think i'm doing is spend time with her

michelle, i love you. i love you so much. not long time, forever darling. forever = never ending.
you said you're coming online tonight, so i'll wait. i want you to come online so i can talk to you again. i love you darling. i really really really love you so much, you read?
i love you, sweetheart:) (i love calling michelle that:))

5th November 2007

2007-11-05T03:41:00.000-08:00

this is for michelle koh hwee min, my darling:) you got the letter?

Yes, the last 165,600 mins of my life and counting has been perfect.
It has been fabulous. and it will always stay so perfect as long as i have michelle.
Not being able to see you has been torturous. it has been really bad because i cant seem to concentrate on any other thing.
But you told me to try my best, and i will, for you.
I miss the times when we'll sms, talk on the phone and sms late into the night, not caring about the money in your hi-card.
I miss those days. i really miss them.

*and how we exchanged secrets over the phone*

Remember that secret? and we both has a shock, lol.
I miss the times when you would cry and hug me, saying you cant lose me.
Even if it was said over the phone, it still means you cant lose me right?
You wont lose me. you will never lose me, you read?
Right now, i'm sitting infront of the comp, waiting for your msn to pop up.
I miss you. i want to talk to you and make up for the time we've lost.
Hurry, come online darling!

You know, just seeing you today made me SO happy.
Then the first letter came. and i know why its not in the heart, lol:)
Then the second later came in a heart shape, with something depressing.
Michelle, i said, you'll never lose me. do you wanna believe me? or believe someone who doesnt know how much i love you?
I cant lose you michelle, i cant. REALLY REALLY cannot. ming bai mah?
Because when i lose you. i'll be lost. so lost because i cant do anything without you, literally

Where're you michelle? come online. i miss you so badly:( hurry up, baby:)
I love you darling.
I want to turn time back, and stop it at the times when i was with you. then press the stop button, and never ever press play.
Because times spent with you is always the best.
I love you michelle
I really love you so much. remember that ok?

4th November 2007

2007-11-04T03:30:00.000-08:00

why do i just accept every blame and suffer in silence? because i want to make everyone happy while i still can

everything sucks. just exactly how much time do i left? can someone pls tell me?

*am i still the most important thing to you*?

thing, not even person

i was so tempted to drag michelle out of her house, and stay with her, forever. i want to
because even now, just talking on the phone with you means so much to me

and you're right. time will prove everything. i wont ever leave you, and we'll see about that.

because to your parents, i'm superficial, but i hope to you, im not. michelle i really love you so much. SO MUCH, you know?

and i want to spend every second that i have with you, happily. michelle, i really really love you darling. i love you so much